21 of 40 – I want to scream…

…to rage against the heavens, my language and attitude born of hell. I want to curse the day, to use my ire to rend the sky, letting lighting strike, the thunder shaking the very core of this Earth’s foundations.

I want to abdicate responsibility, to treat others as they have treated me with not a thought given to karmic retribution.  To do evil unto others and still sleep soundly at night wrapped in the false righteousness of my actions.

I want to wish death’s visit to those who have trespassed against the world. To hear their tortured screams as they die slowly, painfully. To watch as no one cries tears at their passing, but instead burn effigies in celebration.

I want my dark side let loose.

But then I remember my beliefs. My hopes. My dreams. My teachings and lessons so very vigorously, and sometimes painfully, learned. I remember what it’s like to be the outcast, the victim, the one who was bullied. I remember the pain. The longing for salvation, compassion, acceptance, love.

And instead, I turn to my Light and I call it forth. In great waves I send it forth. I work to heal the atmosphere, to bring more fresh air and clean water into the world. I work to close the Earth’s fissures, to fight against those technologies that would tear our world apart. I wrap my darkness in LIGHT so I know what it feels like to be forgiven.

Then I turn off the news, stop listening to the radio, and avoid anything that has to do with the hate. At least I’m getting more writing done this way ;-).

Sending love and light,

Dana

3 thoughts on “21 of 40 – I want to scream…

  1. I loved that – the writing and the sentiments expressed. I feel exactly this way as well especially when I get too caught up in the news. There is so much bad out there – but there is also a lot of good. Sometimes we just have to remind ourselves of that. Even the victims of some of the brutalities that make me so upset are inspiring and part of the beauty in this world. Sending love your way.

  2. Your sentiments are experienced by many good people caught up in the chaos and the “noise.” Becoming GROUNDED through various positive stress relieving ACTIONS helps us FORGIVE and move forward in light and love.
    Wonderful writing!!

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