It was one of those subjects that it was dang near impossible to find any real information about. What little info you got told you it wasn’t something you brought up in “polite” conversation. It was something to be kept a secret. Didn’t stop you though from occasionally taking matters into your own hands, so to speak. I don’t know about you, but it was something I never got the hang of. You can laugh, I often do. There wasn’t anyone to go to ask and most “how to” books talked mechanics and accessories, both of which I had but yet and still, the results were more often unsatisfying, and on more than one occasion left me nauseous and less than interested in doing it again.
Well, I believe I have discovered the “key” that will unlock the mystery, bring about the desired outcome (pun intended). What I’d been missing is a healthy dose of narcissism. Yup. As I continue to evolve, I see where loving oneself can come in handy. Aside from the basics – setting and keeping healthy boundaries, eating healthy, exercising, and doing things that are solely for your benefit, the right amount of narcissism takes any shame or guilt away from the act of “bringing yourself to joy”. You can relax, feel each sensation without hesitation. Masturbation becomes the most fantabulous way to say, “I love you” to yourself.
— Oh, I crack myself up sometimes. In case you were wondering, I have a migraine and what you just read is what eased its way through the pain. Because pain (emotional or physical) prompts my creativity (I have no idea how that works or why), I tend to end up with some new piece of writing. I decided to share this one on the blog :-).
Anyway, I’m going to grab a little bite to eat, then maybe sit still for a little while longer. The meds should be kicking in soon, and then I’ll go forth and do some errands. Not the glamorous life I’d hoped for when I became a novelist but I’ll take it.